Life on Loop: Breaking Away

I am only at the beginning of Possessed, by Kate Cann, but I noticed a clear goal of the main character Rayne. She lives in London, but desperately wants to get away. Escape, as she calls it. Rayne is tired of the loud noises, the tight spaces and responsibilities. She is annoyed with everyone for being to possessive, so clingy. She wants to escape her super-cool boyfriend, her obsessive mother, and having to share her bed with her baby brother when he gets scared. She knows she should be grateful, because she truly does have a good life. But in her eyes, it is the same routine everyday, and she is fed up.

When I read the first two chapters of the book, it was kind of annoying that all Rayne talked about was her desire to leave. In my opinion, she sounds really selfish and stuck up. If you don't read deeply into her reason as to why she want to leave, she just sounds like she complains about everything. Her two year old brother likes to lay next to her on the bed for comfort, but even that annoys her. "I can't bear it, she thought desperately. I hate having him here in my room, in my bed..." When I read that, I was kind of shocked. She only thinks about herself, always complaining to others how her life is so terrible. How she cannot go on living how she does. I don't think she takes into consideration other people's opinion. Why is it she has to leave what she has lived all her life behind, to truly fulfill her wants? Rayne shouldn't have to run away from the people she is unsatisfied with. All she has to do is confront her issues. Doesn't it seem as simple as that?

But truthfully, I think that we've all had those days, when you get frustrated with your life. As a student, I get tired of my long schedules and daily routines. I wake up early, go to show choir, endure six hours of school work, and then I have after school activities. And then I go home to finish my homework and to study. I only have a couple of free days to relax and hang out with my friends. I have early mornings on the weekends as well, for my aikido martial arts classes. I have been using this schedule/routine for over two years now, since I started middle school. I enjoy all my activities very much, but it is the same every week, and every day. When that happens, your life seems to grow more dull. For me, there have been times when I felt so confined, so restless. I felt so... so longing for something exciting to come along. So upset with everybody for no real reason, and you feel like your suffocating. Almost as if your life is on loop, the events of your day replaying itself as the week drags on. So, I personally can connect with Rayne, and I don't think I'm the only one...