Children's books often use rhymes, vibrant colors, silly characters and silly situations to convey a powerful message that is important for kids to learn early on. But children's books also introduce conflict--good vs evil--to a young audience. The reason: the world isn't perfect, and you can learn from your mistakes if you never make one. One thing you shouldn't do when explaining something to a child is fully sugar-coat life, because then the child will grow up unfamiliar with how to solve problems.
For example, most are familiar with the all time favorite author Dr. Seuss. Known for his made up words, rhyming tales, and odd-looking creatures. But as we learned from The Lorax, there is more to the story than just goofy pictures. Its about the Oncler who comes to the hill where the truffela trees grow. The land is beautiful, but despite the Lorax's pleas, he chops down the truffela trees and drives the other creatures away to benefit his factories. When the land is raw and bare, and the business is done, he gives a truffela seed to a child to start anew. The message is that no good comes to greedy people and to never give up. By giving the kid the seed as opposed to an adult, it shows that small actions can make a difference, and that kids have the power to make change happen.
I thought The Lorax was a great story, both packing a powerful theme and still reaching the interests of the youthful audience. All the messages portrayed in this tale will always be relevant. It shows that there are people in the world who will do what they please for money. People who kill creatures, pollute the air, and then leave when the land can no longer help the owner make a profit. It also shows the children that they can be greedy, but there are consequences. You will lose the respect and trust of your friends. It also implies that you can repair even the biggest of mistakes, so never give up.
In reality, there are cruel people who walk around the streets. In reality, everyone makes mistakes. While some are bigger than others, it is important for a child growing up to know that in general, conflicts arise. Children's books are important because you live by the morals you are taught. If children know that there are imperfections with the way our world is, then they won't be effected greatly when one comes their way. To have conflict in a made-up story, means that if their is conflict in a book, there is also issues in the real world. Story books are a good way to teach life lessons, and preparing the reader/listener for what's to come.
Wednesday, December 5, 2012
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
For Who I am
The Future of Us by Jay Asher and Carolyn Mackler
Ever since his best friend Emma rejected him, he was unsure how to act around girls. He's in high school, yet he only recently wore his first pair of boxers. He wasn't sure of what would become of him. So when he and Emma discover a leak into the future--Facebook (which hadn't been invented in 1996) he is extremely happy to find out he has the perfect life. But then he realizes, that his future was basically bought by his wife, and since he couldn't get his own job, his father-in-law employed him.
Initially I thought that Josh should still be excited. He'll live in a beautiful house, have a beautiful wife, three kids, and a lot of spending money for vacations and the sort. But even so, Josh is unsatisfied.
I think that Josh's self esteem was lowered even more, when he read into his future. I think he feels like he can't accomplish anything now, and he won't when he grows up. Josh doesn't want to be dependent on his wife, and feel useless. I think that he isn't reading the situation correctly, though. How does he know whether or not he wanted to work for his father-in-law's company? He doesn't. He is making that assumption because of lack of confidence, and a poor view of himself.
The thoughts that have been going through Josh's brain throughout all this mess, is will anyone ever take me for who I am?
This is a reasonable question, of course. Who wouldn't want people to except them for who they are? But in my opinion, Josh is taking this too seriously. It was Josh in the beginning telling Anna that she shouldn't stress or mess with the future, but now he is jumping to conclusions that he is unhappy in his soon-to-be perfect life.
We just recently learned a little about social justice. Josh doesn't think he is good enough for Sydney Mills, or Emma, or anyone. But if he had taken the time to repair his relationship with Emma, I don't think he would've ever felt so low. Confidence benefits you because you live with a little less weight on your shoulders when you aren't so worried and unsure. I think that Josh should just let the future come, and trust himself to make the right decisions.
Ever since his best friend Emma rejected him, he was unsure how to act around girls. He's in high school, yet he only recently wore his first pair of boxers. He wasn't sure of what would become of him. So when he and Emma discover a leak into the future--Facebook (which hadn't been invented in 1996) he is extremely happy to find out he has the perfect life. But then he realizes, that his future was basically bought by his wife, and since he couldn't get his own job, his father-in-law employed him.
Initially I thought that Josh should still be excited. He'll live in a beautiful house, have a beautiful wife, three kids, and a lot of spending money for vacations and the sort. But even so, Josh is unsatisfied.
I think that Josh's self esteem was lowered even more, when he read into his future. I think he feels like he can't accomplish anything now, and he won't when he grows up. Josh doesn't want to be dependent on his wife, and feel useless. I think that he isn't reading the situation correctly, though. How does he know whether or not he wanted to work for his father-in-law's company? He doesn't. He is making that assumption because of lack of confidence, and a poor view of himself.
The thoughts that have been going through Josh's brain throughout all this mess, is will anyone ever take me for who I am?
This is a reasonable question, of course. Who wouldn't want people to except them for who they are? But in my opinion, Josh is taking this too seriously. It was Josh in the beginning telling Anna that she shouldn't stress or mess with the future, but now he is jumping to conclusions that he is unhappy in his soon-to-be perfect life.
We just recently learned a little about social justice. Josh doesn't think he is good enough for Sydney Mills, or Emma, or anyone. But if he had taken the time to repair his relationship with Emma, I don't think he would've ever felt so low. Confidence benefits you because you live with a little less weight on your shoulders when you aren't so worried and unsure. I think that Josh should just let the future come, and trust himself to make the right decisions.
Wednesday, October 31, 2012
Heavy Boots
"We had been searching together for six and a half months when Mr. Black told me he was finished, and then I was all alone again, and I hadn't accomplished anything, and my boots were the heaviest they'd ever been in my life."-Oskar Schell
The protagonist in Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer, Oskar, constantly uses the term heavy boots. When I first started this book, I had trouble depicting what it meant. Now, towards the end of the book, I think I can imagine what it means. From what I understand, heavy boots describe pressure, guilt. Like a heavy feeling that Oskar must carry with him.
When Mr. Black said he was done helping Oskar search for the key, he had given up hope. Just when he thought his search was getting somewhere, when his boots were light and airy- failure loomed over him. Heavy boots are stuffed with disappointment. To Oskar, it makes him feel "EXTREMELY DEPRESSED" and, "INCREDIBLY ALONE." But I see it as the thing that is weighing him down. If he loses hope so easily, he will never get to were he wants to be.
I've had the feeling of heavy boots. In all forms really. Anger, guilt, annoyance, frustration and desperation. And like Oskar, I always let it weigh me down. For the future, I know now that I can't let anything weigh me down, and if something does, something needs to be done to lighten that weight. I know that sounds cheesy, but that's what I felt every time I read that Oskar had "heavy boots". It makes me feel even more sympathy because that's what he felt ever since his dad died. His death weighed him down. Finding the key's owner was the only hope he imagined finding. If Oskar doesn't want heavy boots, he needs to let go.
The protagonist in Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close by Jonathan Safran Foer, Oskar, constantly uses the term heavy boots. When I first started this book, I had trouble depicting what it meant. Now, towards the end of the book, I think I can imagine what it means. From what I understand, heavy boots describe pressure, guilt. Like a heavy feeling that Oskar must carry with him.
When Mr. Black said he was done helping Oskar search for the key, he had given up hope. Just when he thought his search was getting somewhere, when his boots were light and airy- failure loomed over him. Heavy boots are stuffed with disappointment. To Oskar, it makes him feel "EXTREMELY DEPRESSED" and, "INCREDIBLY ALONE." But I see it as the thing that is weighing him down. If he loses hope so easily, he will never get to were he wants to be.
I've had the feeling of heavy boots. In all forms really. Anger, guilt, annoyance, frustration and desperation. And like Oskar, I always let it weigh me down. For the future, I know now that I can't let anything weigh me down, and if something does, something needs to be done to lighten that weight. I know that sounds cheesy, but that's what I felt every time I read that Oskar had "heavy boots". It makes me feel even more sympathy because that's what he felt ever since his dad died. His death weighed him down. Finding the key's owner was the only hope he imagined finding. If Oskar doesn't want heavy boots, he needs to let go.
Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Odyssey to Find Closure
Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Foer
In the book Extremely Loud & Incredibly Close by Jonathan Foer, the protagonist Oskar Schell finds all his answers in his dad. He thought that his dad was the best person in the world. He was smart, logic, and creative. Yes, everyone thinks this about his or her dad for the most part. But for Oskar, he is lost in a sea of questions without him. After losing his dad to the 9/11 terrorist attack, Oskar fights confusion and anger in determination to find closure.
I think that Oskar wants to find closure in completing a game that he and his dad had started before 9/11, and left unfinished. In this game his dad, Thomas, would give Oskar clues and he would have to bring objects to his dad that fit the description. His dad told him when he won. But this game had been going on especially long. Oskar searched day after day. Any questions he had for his dad, Thomas answered with questions. But Oskar never came close. Now, after his dad died, Oskar finds a key that he thinks may be the winner to the game. First though, he must find what the key is for, and who it belongs to.
Oskar travels to boroughs in search of anyone who might have been in acquaintance to his father. Yet, he is met with disappointment. Without his dad there to tell him yes or no, leaves Oskar completely lost and frustrated. He constantly reminds himself when someone doesn't supply him with a satisfactory answer, dad would've known. Oskar loves challenges and thought provoking tasks, but internally he is angry that he was left to figure this out alone. His dad was all Oskar ever wanted to be- but now he is gone. I think that Oskar wants to finish this game as a last sense of connection to his father. To prove himself worthy of one last approval.
I love my dad. He is not a professor, yet I feel like he knows all the answers that would be important to me. I can't imagine losing him, or his dad-jokes, or how he calls my classmates "kitty cats" on school trips. But it's not just him. I couldn't imagine losing anyone dearly close to me. But I feel that if I had, I would want to find a way to make it up to them. I would have to take some path to find closure. Oskar's, unfortunately, happens to be a long difficult odyssey of which he has to conquer on his own.
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I think that Oskar wants to find closure in completing a game that he and his dad had started before 9/11, and left unfinished. In this game his dad, Thomas, would give Oskar clues and he would have to bring objects to his dad that fit the description. His dad told him when he won. But this game had been going on especially long. Oskar searched day after day. Any questions he had for his dad, Thomas answered with questions. But Oskar never came close. Now, after his dad died, Oskar finds a key that he thinks may be the winner to the game. First though, he must find what the key is for, and who it belongs to.
Oskar travels to boroughs in search of anyone who might have been in acquaintance to his father. Yet, he is met with disappointment. Without his dad there to tell him yes or no, leaves Oskar completely lost and frustrated. He constantly reminds himself when someone doesn't supply him with a satisfactory answer, dad would've known. Oskar loves challenges and thought provoking tasks, but internally he is angry that he was left to figure this out alone. His dad was all Oskar ever wanted to be- but now he is gone. I think that Oskar wants to finish this game as a last sense of connection to his father. To prove himself worthy of one last approval.
I love my dad. He is not a professor, yet I feel like he knows all the answers that would be important to me. I can't imagine losing him, or his dad-jokes, or how he calls my classmates "kitty cats" on school trips. But it's not just him. I couldn't imagine losing anyone dearly close to me. But I feel that if I had, I would want to find a way to make it up to them. I would have to take some path to find closure. Oskar's, unfortunately, happens to be a long difficult odyssey of which he has to conquer on his own.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Revenge Or Relief?
13 Reasons Why By Jay Asher
I am nearing the end of the book 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher. It is about the protagonist, Clay, listening to tapes recorded by someone who commits suicide. Hannah, the author of these tapes, creates them to tell 13 people why she decided to commit suicide, and what they had to do with it. On each tape, she records a moment of realization, and each one involves one of the 13 people on her list. In these tapes she tells her story, the one that no one has bothered to listen to. In each story, she tells of how that person hurt her, how that person affected her. It seems a little harsh, no? Leaving little reminders that you caused someone to take their life. A little like revenge. It seems as though Hannah did this out of anger, as if she wanted the people on her list to be forever haunted and with guilt. That may be why she started the tapes, but I think that it went deeper than that.
All of Hannah's stories so far, are truly terrible. From any other character's point of view it may have not been, but from Hannah's, I was able to feel upset for her that things went downhill ever since she moved. I can grasp the concept of why she would want to make the people feel guilty. I understand why she would want the 13 people on her list, to realize the affects of their actions. I understand it completely. I remember a couple of years ago, I was extremely upset. I can't remember why exactly, but I remember that it felt like my whole world was crashing down on me. Dramatic. I know. But I felt like I hated everyone, and I couldn't deal with anything anymore. I felt cramped in my small room, and I felt lonely. I wrote down all the things I was thinking into an empty notebook, and left it on the dining room table. I wanted my family to realize how miserable I was. I wanted them to wander upon it, and find a tear-stained scribbled mess of anger and sadness. I wanted them to feel bad. But just as my mom was about to pick it up, I hurriedly snatched the notebook, suddenly changing my mind. I wouldn't meet her stare. I realized it wasn't fair to drag others into my problems, and that it was selfish of me to want them to suffer as much as I was. So I tore up the paper and threw them away.
So, yeah. The tapes that Hannah made could be looked at as unfair, and cruel. It could be argued that blaming these people and then making a permanent reminder is unjust. But I don't view Hannah as the kind of person that was filled with hate for herself and everyone around her. I think she was just tired of hearing rumors about her. She was tired of being looked over as unimportant, as if everyone already knew everything about her. But no one really did. I think that she told her story for the 13 people, in the way it actually was. In this way, the tapes acted as relief to Hannah, because she left the world knowing that her former reputation was cleared.
When I first started reading this book, I thought, this girl is really cruel. But as her story unfolded, I began to understand. The 13 people she blamed for her suicide, they all contributed to her source of unhappiness. Mostly by creating rumors, or breaking her trust. Hannah's trust was battered and bruised from her experiences, and she just wanted to give up. But the tapes, after a while, came off as sad to me. Listening, or reading one after another, I started to accept that she just wanted clarification for everyone. And I felt pain for her, that she needed to do that. Its not fair, that all of her problems escalated so far. Overall, I don't think that Hannah found pleasure in the tapes she made. I think she had a purpose in making them. Do you think she wanted to relive all those moments, that led to her wanting to take her life? Because I don't think so. She wanted people to understand her. Not pity, but simply understand her situation. By recording the tapes, she accomplished just that.
But what do you think was her reasoning? Revenge or relief?
I am nearing the end of the book 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher. It is about the protagonist, Clay, listening to tapes recorded by someone who commits suicide. Hannah, the author of these tapes, creates them to tell 13 people why she decided to commit suicide, and what they had to do with it. On each tape, she records a moment of realization, and each one involves one of the 13 people on her list. In these tapes she tells her story, the one that no one has bothered to listen to. In each story, she tells of how that person hurt her, how that person affected her. It seems a little harsh, no? Leaving little reminders that you caused someone to take their life. A little like revenge. It seems as though Hannah did this out of anger, as if she wanted the people on her list to be forever haunted and with guilt. That may be why she started the tapes, but I think that it went deeper than that.
All of Hannah's stories so far, are truly terrible. From any other character's point of view it may have not been, but from Hannah's, I was able to feel upset for her that things went downhill ever since she moved. I can grasp the concept of why she would want to make the people feel guilty. I understand why she would want the 13 people on her list, to realize the affects of their actions. I understand it completely. I remember a couple of years ago, I was extremely upset. I can't remember why exactly, but I remember that it felt like my whole world was crashing down on me. Dramatic. I know. But I felt like I hated everyone, and I couldn't deal with anything anymore. I felt cramped in my small room, and I felt lonely. I wrote down all the things I was thinking into an empty notebook, and left it on the dining room table. I wanted my family to realize how miserable I was. I wanted them to wander upon it, and find a tear-stained scribbled mess of anger and sadness. I wanted them to feel bad. But just as my mom was about to pick it up, I hurriedly snatched the notebook, suddenly changing my mind. I wouldn't meet her stare. I realized it wasn't fair to drag others into my problems, and that it was selfish of me to want them to suffer as much as I was. So I tore up the paper and threw them away.
So, yeah. The tapes that Hannah made could be looked at as unfair, and cruel. It could be argued that blaming these people and then making a permanent reminder is unjust. But I don't view Hannah as the kind of person that was filled with hate for herself and everyone around her. I think she was just tired of hearing rumors about her. She was tired of being looked over as unimportant, as if everyone already knew everything about her. But no one really did. I think that she told her story for the 13 people, in the way it actually was. In this way, the tapes acted as relief to Hannah, because she left the world knowing that her former reputation was cleared.
When I first started reading this book, I thought, this girl is really cruel. But as her story unfolded, I began to understand. The 13 people she blamed for her suicide, they all contributed to her source of unhappiness. Mostly by creating rumors, or breaking her trust. Hannah's trust was battered and bruised from her experiences, and she just wanted to give up. But the tapes, after a while, came off as sad to me. Listening, or reading one after another, I started to accept that she just wanted clarification for everyone. And I felt pain for her, that she needed to do that. Its not fair, that all of her problems escalated so far. Overall, I don't think that Hannah found pleasure in the tapes she made. I think she had a purpose in making them. Do you think she wanted to relive all those moments, that led to her wanting to take her life? Because I don't think so. She wanted people to understand her. Not pity, but simply understand her situation. By recording the tapes, she accomplished just that.
But what do you think was her reasoning? Revenge or relief?
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
Life on Loop: Breaking Away
I am only at the beginning of Possessed, by Kate Cann, but I noticed a clear goal of the main character Rayne. She lives in London, but desperately wants to get away. Escape, as she calls it. Rayne is tired of the loud noises, the tight spaces and responsibilities. She is annoyed with everyone for being to possessive, so clingy. She wants to escape her super-cool boyfriend, her obsessive mother, and having to share her bed with her baby brother when he gets scared. She knows she should be grateful, because she truly does have a good life. But in her eyes, it is the same routine everyday, and she is fed up.
When I read the first two chapters of the book, it was kind of annoying that all Rayne talked about was her desire to leave. In my opinion, she sounds really selfish and stuck up. If you don't read deeply into her reason as to why she want to leave, she just sounds like she complains about everything. Her two year old brother likes to lay next to her on the bed for comfort, but even that annoys her. "I can't bear it, she thought desperately. I hate having him here in my room, in my bed..." When I read that, I was kind of shocked. She only thinks about herself, always complaining to others how her life is so terrible. How she cannot go on living how she does. I don't think she takes into consideration other people's opinion. Why is it she has to leave what she has lived all her life behind, to truly fulfill her wants? Rayne shouldn't have to run away from the people she is unsatisfied with. All she has to do is confront her issues. Doesn't it seem as simple as that?
But truthfully, I think that we've all had those days, when you get frustrated with your life. As a student, I get tired of my long schedules and daily routines. I wake up early, go to show choir, endure six hours of school work, and then I have after school activities. And then I go home to finish my homework and to study. I only have a couple of free days to relax and hang out with my friends. I have early mornings on the weekends as well, for my aikido martial arts classes. I have been using this schedule/routine for over two years now, since I started middle school. I enjoy all my activities very much, but it is the same every week, and every day. When that happens, your life seems to grow more dull. For me, there have been times when I felt so confined, so restless. I felt so... so longing for something exciting to come along. So upset with everybody for no real reason, and you feel like your suffocating. Almost as if your life is on loop, the events of your day replaying itself as the week drags on. So, I personally can connect with Rayne, and I don't think I'm the only one...
When I read the first two chapters of the book, it was kind of annoying that all Rayne talked about was her desire to leave. In my opinion, she sounds really selfish and stuck up. If you don't read deeply into her reason as to why she want to leave, she just sounds like she complains about everything. Her two year old brother likes to lay next to her on the bed for comfort, but even that annoys her. "I can't bear it, she thought desperately. I hate having him here in my room, in my bed..." When I read that, I was kind of shocked. She only thinks about herself, always complaining to others how her life is so terrible. How she cannot go on living how she does. I don't think she takes into consideration other people's opinion. Why is it she has to leave what she has lived all her life behind, to truly fulfill her wants? Rayne shouldn't have to run away from the people she is unsatisfied with. All she has to do is confront her issues. Doesn't it seem as simple as that?
But truthfully, I think that we've all had those days, when you get frustrated with your life. As a student, I get tired of my long schedules and daily routines. I wake up early, go to show choir, endure six hours of school work, and then I have after school activities. And then I go home to finish my homework and to study. I only have a couple of free days to relax and hang out with my friends. I have early mornings on the weekends as well, for my aikido martial arts classes. I have been using this schedule/routine for over two years now, since I started middle school. I enjoy all my activities very much, but it is the same every week, and every day. When that happens, your life seems to grow more dull. For me, there have been times when I felt so confined, so restless. I felt so... so longing for something exciting to come along. So upset with everybody for no real reason, and you feel like your suffocating. Almost as if your life is on loop, the events of your day replaying itself as the week drags on. So, I personally can connect with Rayne, and I don't think I'm the only one...
Tuesday, October 2, 2012
Finding Yourself
*SPOILER ALERT
The short story "Am I Blue" by Bruce Coville is about a teenager who hasn't fully discovered himself and needs guidance. Vincent receives a fairy godfather to help him find a path. He has been trying to figure out whether or not he is gay for a while, and is stuck in confusion. At the beginning of the story he is reluctant to admit to himself how he feels, but by the end he comes to a realization, while learning the truth about the world and its cruelty.
Vincent gets bullied and called harsh names like "fruit, fairy, and faggot." He is angry and confused and doesn't understand why this is happening to him. When he first meets his fairy godfather, Vincent says, "'Me being your first case. Does that mean I'm gay?' I didn't mention that I had been trying to figure out the same thing myself for about a year now". This is evidence that he is confused, but when I read it, I pictured him saying it kind of vulnerably. It seems as though he kind of doesn't want it to be true. As if he has already concluded the answer to his question. He is anxious to know so that he can get it over with. I think that it is mainly because he doesn't want to deal with all the bullying. For instance throughout the story while he is talking to Melvin, his fairy godfather, what's on his mind is how much trouble he'll be in for talking to a homosexual. "...walking around with a guy who moved the way Melvin did wasn't going to do anything to improve the situation." "'What's the matter, afraid of guilt by association?' 'No, I'm afraid he'll come over here and beat us up. Only he probably can't beat you up, so he'll have to settle for me.'" So obviously he doesn't want to get injured, but I also think that he is denying the sentimental reasons. I think this is how he convinces himself that he isn't gay.
Towards the middle of the story, Vincent wishes for 'gaydar', when you can tell who is gay because in your mind they show up blue. I inferred that when he got this visual, it was kind of like a wake up call that said, you're not alone. "It must be so lonely," he says, because he understands what Melvin feels. I think this comforts him, because he knows that there are other people who have to discover themselves as well.
By the end of the story, Vincent wished for the world to have this blue vision, and it opened up everybody's eyes. He was surprised by the people he saw, and some people upset him. Butch the bully for example, he was blue. So was the republican congressman talking about the horrors of homosexuality. At the end he concludes that although some may live in hiding, he shouldn't have to deal. He accepted that he was gay and he knows that there are others to back him up.
It took a lot for Vincent to come to this realization, and he learned that people hide things to make their lives better. He went from feeling alone, to feeling confident. To do that you have to make a long journey. He accomplished self discovery. Where as I am not even close.
I've never experienced anything that Vincent has. I had to read this story three times just to analyze the text deeper than just words on paper. But then I realized, that I am a "confused puppy", and so are you, and everyone else in the world. There is always the question, What do you want to be when you grow up? Most people at our age, don't know. For me, it's hard to plan things that are so far ahead. And although I like to be independent, I'm not ashamed to admit that I need guidance.
Sadly, I don't get a fairy godmother/father. My guidance comes in the form of my horoscope kindle fire app. It's not as great, but as much as I'd like to, I'm in no rush to find myself. That will come at its own time. I don't know what I want to do when I grow up, and I don't know what kind of person I want to be. I'm glad that Vincent is happy with himself and now has a path that he is satisfied with. Me, I'm still searching for that road, the one that determines who I am and what it means to me.
The short story "Am I Blue" by Bruce Coville is about a teenager who hasn't fully discovered himself and needs guidance. Vincent receives a fairy godfather to help him find a path. He has been trying to figure out whether or not he is gay for a while, and is stuck in confusion. At the beginning of the story he is reluctant to admit to himself how he feels, but by the end he comes to a realization, while learning the truth about the world and its cruelty.
Vincent gets bullied and called harsh names like "fruit, fairy, and faggot." He is angry and confused and doesn't understand why this is happening to him. When he first meets his fairy godfather, Vincent says, "'Me being your first case. Does that mean I'm gay?' I didn't mention that I had been trying to figure out the same thing myself for about a year now". This is evidence that he is confused, but when I read it, I pictured him saying it kind of vulnerably. It seems as though he kind of doesn't want it to be true. As if he has already concluded the answer to his question. He is anxious to know so that he can get it over with. I think that it is mainly because he doesn't want to deal with all the bullying. For instance throughout the story while he is talking to Melvin, his fairy godfather, what's on his mind is how much trouble he'll be in for talking to a homosexual. "...walking around with a guy who moved the way Melvin did wasn't going to do anything to improve the situation." "'What's the matter, afraid of guilt by association?' 'No, I'm afraid he'll come over here and beat us up. Only he probably can't beat you up, so he'll have to settle for me.'" So obviously he doesn't want to get injured, but I also think that he is denying the sentimental reasons. I think this is how he convinces himself that he isn't gay.
Towards the middle of the story, Vincent wishes for 'gaydar', when you can tell who is gay because in your mind they show up blue. I inferred that when he got this visual, it was kind of like a wake up call that said, you're not alone. "It must be so lonely," he says, because he understands what Melvin feels. I think this comforts him, because he knows that there are other people who have to discover themselves as well.
By the end of the story, Vincent wished for the world to have this blue vision, and it opened up everybody's eyes. He was surprised by the people he saw, and some people upset him. Butch the bully for example, he was blue. So was the republican congressman talking about the horrors of homosexuality. At the end he concludes that although some may live in hiding, he shouldn't have to deal. He accepted that he was gay and he knows that there are others to back him up.
It took a lot for Vincent to come to this realization, and he learned that people hide things to make their lives better. He went from feeling alone, to feeling confident. To do that you have to make a long journey. He accomplished self discovery. Where as I am not even close.
I've never experienced anything that Vincent has. I had to read this story three times just to analyze the text deeper than just words on paper. But then I realized, that I am a "confused puppy", and so are you, and everyone else in the world. There is always the question, What do you want to be when you grow up? Most people at our age, don't know. For me, it's hard to plan things that are so far ahead. And although I like to be independent, I'm not ashamed to admit that I need guidance.
Sadly, I don't get a fairy godmother/father. My guidance comes in the form of my horoscope kindle fire app. It's not as great, but as much as I'd like to, I'm in no rush to find myself. That will come at its own time. I don't know what I want to do when I grow up, and I don't know what kind of person I want to be. I'm glad that Vincent is happy with himself and now has a path that he is satisfied with. Me, I'm still searching for that road, the one that determines who I am and what it means to me.
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